I decided to get myself a Christmas gift this year. I haven’t been happy with where I have taken my life. There are things I want to change and improve. I haven’t lived my life to its fullest potential everyday. I can return my new life if I’m unsatisfied for whatever reason.
For three years, I’ve been wanting a better life and I haven’t put most of my energy into it. I gave it small concentrated efforts that led nowhere. For the next 90+ days, I’ll be using all my energy to create this Christmas gift for myself.
The first thing I want to do is finally transform my body into an athlete’s body. I want to be strong, fast and healthy. Yes, I run marathons. The weight is beginning to give me pain. I want to eliminate the excess weight so my body can focus on becoming a better athlete than just surviving. I want to be strong enough carry a load more than the typical American. I want to develop a body that will qualify for the Boston Marathon. I want a sound body that will carry and nurture a sound mind.
Depression is a beast. Give it an inch and it’ll be the ruler your world. I want to have control over it than it controlling me. It wrecks a lot of things in my life. There area few things I need to do to manage and eventually triumph over this. First, I need to I work on developing good habits to get it under control. I slip into bad habits which become bad thoughts. I need to develop good resilient habits to replace the bad ones. Second, I need to learn to deal with my triggers better. There are triggers all around me at school and at home. My parent’s home is the worst of them all. Third, I have to find and maintain the support system. I haven’t been to a counseling session in over a month and feel the effects of that choice. I can’t do this alone. Finally, I need to find time to exercise everyday. Exercise is St. Michael’s sword I use to fend off thoughts and feelings of anxiety and sadness.
Good healthy habits makes a good healthy life. Motivation gets me started and healthy good habits keep me going. They are my tools to create a better life. It’s going to take baby steps to create these habits. The first healthy habit I want to develop is keeping my desk clear before I go to sleep and making my bed. Nothing feels worse than waking up to clutter or coming home to mess. Each day, I’ll add a new healthy habit. My healthy habits are loosely based on those found at Flylady.net. I’ll be modifying them to my needs.
I want to include more in my Christmas gift but I don’t want to do too much that I become overburden an quit. A sound body, a sound mind, and sound habits combined will make one nice Christmas present. If I don’t like it, I can always return it and get my old life back.
My favorite gift to give during Christmas day is a fruit basket with toys and gift certificates. they can really put a smile on someone’s face”*;